Getting used to what we "used to"

Message
Text
Call
See
Hear
Meet
Talk
Laugh
Show
Tell
Hold hands
Hug
Kiss
Cuddle
Fuck
Sleep
Eat
Cook
Give
Take
Share
Wear
Watch
Listen
Learn
Teach
Travel
Smile
Love

Verb after verb after verb, it was.
Memory in Silence, it is. And so:
                                    , it will be.

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