Shab-e-Barat / Valentines / 143 Day
Assalamu Alaykum dearest, I am sorry for not writing in so long. I hope my text did not bother you also. Today is Shab-e-Barat, a "Muslim" holiday popular in South Asia and Iran. It's also Valentine's Day, so, of course your absence weighs especially heavily today. There is so much I wish I could give you, to send to you. There are many beautiful clothes here... I remember during our honeymoon how you would buy me clothes, and how weak and useless I felt, because I thought I couldn't do the same. I worried so much about money, who owed what to whom, that at times it suffocated all other thoughts and emotions. I'm so sorry, darling, that I lived my life as a coward and made yours worse. It probably sounds completely disingenuous to now say "I want to give you gifts." I've given you little reason to trust or believe anything I say. That's my fault, something I can never fault you for, just as I can not fault you for telling me "I don...